Tuesday, October 13, 2009

thoughts...motherhood and love


Roman James Painter, 6 months old. Just started baby food. He loves it. I'm feeling a little more reflective about the whole thing. I can't believe it's here already.
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Yesterday I took my kids to the grocery store. I pushed the monstrosity of a cart that is required. Zach and Lily sat in their seats, beeped the horns of their steering wheels and said "Happy Halloween!" to every shopper we passed. As I tucked a package of bacon in the space of the cart that remained, a lady touched my elbow and said, "You must be an angel." And then at the checkout, unloading groceries (uncovering Roman's car seat from a pile of produce) the cashier exclaimed, "WHOA, there's another one under there!" And I remembered back to when I was young, and my family of seven took bike rides together. Strangers used to honk and wave at us. It was funny to see such a long line of (mostly little) bikes.


We're finally using hand-me-downs. And boy oh boy do they transport me back in time. I put a blue bib on Roman and thought of the days when it was just me and another little boy together in a quiet house. I sort of romanticised a bit about how sweet those days were. How I used to turn on soft music just to have some background noise.
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I love every single stage. Mainly, I am grateful to be participating in the heritage of motherhood. I know that my experiences and emotions are not especially unique, and that kind of astounds me. That there are millions of people who love so deeply.

11 comments:

Erin S said...

You write so beautifully, you really do. You are an angel, that's for sure! I have yet to enter that phase of being a mom to 3 and honestly, most days I don't know if I could ever do it! I can totally picture you guys at the store, I bet it was such a cute sight to see. Your children are darling.

Lisa said...

I love your posts. Thanks especially for this one. Sometimes I need to remember how great motherhood is. Of course I adore my girls, but let's face it, it's hard. Thanks for the reminder of how wonderful it is as well.

Isaura said...

Tara,
I respect and admire the fact that you cherish the opportunity you have to be a mother. I can always sence the importance you hold to your calling as a mom when you talk of your children. What a special thing. It always makes me happy to read such lovely thoughts on the subject.

Lora said...

Is roman truly 6 months old? Wow how time passes!
1.The pictures are great
2.little miss lily's hair is adorable,
3.you want to make me cherish every moment I have with my little one, and have a great time doing it, well because I'm the mom

Thanks Tara

Jill Revell said...

super cute pictures! super cute kids! i loved this posted. thanks!

Haney family said...

I just love roman's cute little face:)
We've got to get together now that we are both in Mo..again:)

Christy said...

oh little roman is just so so darling. and i'm not just saying that. he really is one of the cutest babies i've ever seen. i can't believe he's six months old already. i swear it was yesterday we were both pregnant going to that scary doctor in houston. :) (remember how he told me just to obey the word of wisdom and i'd be fine?? ah ha.) thanks for the post-- i loved it. being a mom rocks.

Nicole said...

What an amazing feeling that must be. Can't wait...someday! I can tell you deeply love your life and that is inspiring.

Tiffany said...

You are such a good writer, I love reading your blog. And all your pictures are amazing. I have been meaning to give you a call to get together again. I would love to get together next week or the one after. And I'm afraid if we swap Christmas photos that you would get the short end of the stick. :) I would love to though! I have been craving a family picture (we haven't had one since Bailey was born...too long). And I am looking into a prime lens.....

meg said...

Such good thoughts - a beautiful pictures to illustrate. Life is simpler when your children are all home with you all day. Hard work, but good times.

missy said...

I found myself nodding through that entire thing. The ginormous cart, the people giving sidelong glances at you (and I only have two!) and the intense love for our job these days. You make me appreciate it even more Tara.